urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:bearerofskeith This is my great escape Haseo 2008-02-05T03:22:10Z urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:bearerofskeith:2651 2008-02-05T03:22:10Z 2008-02-05T03:22:10Z I've decided to keep using this computer. It'll help me keep track of time, and it's something I'm used to. <br /><br />I'm going to start exploring this place more. I mean, I saw all these interesting places but I was too confused and worried about not having any weapons to go investigate. But now there's nothing to worry about!<br /><br />I think the first order of business is going to be that lake with the sea monster in it. That sounds interesting. Of course, it might not be there anymore. <br /><br />Oh well. Guess that's part of the fun. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:bearerofskeith:2549 2008-02-04T02:25:34Z 2008-02-04T02:25:34Z I think I finally get it. It only took what, a week? Two? I've already lost track of how long I've been here. But that doesn't really matter.<br /><br />I never went back to The World after getting PKed by Tri-Edge. How could I? Players who get PKed by Tri-Edge don't come back, they become Lost Ones, like Shino. I didn't go back, I fell into a coma and I'm probably in some hospital right now, dreaming all of this shit up.<br /><br />Ovan wasn't Tri-Edge. I never joined Canard or became the Demon Palace Emperor. I'm not an Epitah User; <i>that's</i> why I can't find Skeith, because Skeith isn't real. Or if he is, he's not my Avatar. I never spent time with Silabus, Gaspard, Atoli, Pi, or Kuhn. If they even exist, they were probably just some players I saw when I was in the Twilight Brigade and I populated my dream with familiar faces. And Alkaid and Endrance? Who knows. Maybe I overheard other players talking about the Arena. Because you don't come back from being a Lost One. I didn't meet them. I didn't marry Endrance. I didn't do any of it.<br /><br />I passed out on my desk and someone eventually found me. I made up the rest of it, and once I ran out of adventure, I came up with this nightmare. Maybe that means I'm going to come out of the coma soon. Maybe it means I'm going to die. Maybe I'm going to be stuck like this for the rest of my life. Either way, what does it matter? Nothing I can do about it. And if I do ever come out of it, I'm <i>never</i> going to play that damn game again.<br /><br />Certainly does explain a lot. Actually being my character? Please. Like that's even possible.<br /><br />Suddenly, this whole stupid situation's gotten a hell of a lot easier to deal with. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:bearerofskeith:2296 2008-02-01T02:06:59Z 2008-02-01T02:06:59Z Um, hello? Gods? <br /><br /><a name="cutid1"></a> <br /><br />I've got something to ask you, but I've never talked to gods before. I mean, there aren't any in my world, or if there, I never knew it. Anyway, I was told I could talk to you and I figured that since you're gods, you could read this. If there's something else I should be doing, burning candles or wearing some special outfit, I don't know what it is. Sorry.<br /><br />But, well, could I have my stuff back? Or at least some of my stuff if I can't have it all? I mean, there are monsters here and stuff, right? And I don't have anything but the computer and I can't really carry that around with me everywhere. I don't think it would make a very good weapon. Plus if I broke it, how would I talk to anyone? <br /><br />I know I can't have my powers back. And as much as I'd like to have him back, you get used to having someone else living in your head after a while, I'm guessing that Skeith qualifies as a power that I can't have. People said I had to repent first. And a bunch of other stuff I didn't really understand. But I don't know what I did so I don't know what to be sorry for. <br /><br />Well, no. That's not true. There's a lot to be sorry for.<br /><br />I'm sorry about all the people that got hurt because I wasn't strong enough to help them, or because I didn't get there in time to save them. Shino and Alkaid fell into comas, Atoli started to disintegrate, and Endrance is dead! Not just in the game, but for real! And it's MY fault!<br /><br />But that's not why I'm here. I know that. This place is too nice. I deserve somewhere worse than this. But I am here and even though I'm not any good at it, I want to at least TRY to protect people. What if more of my friends come here? Or one of those monsters attacks Endrance? I can't protect anybody with nothing.<br /><br />So please? Can I have something back? Something I can use to protect the people I care about?<br /><br /> urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:bearerofskeith:1956 2008-01-30T22:26:01Z 2008-01-30T22:26:01Z For all the weirdness, this place is starting to remind me of home. Something about the people, I guess. And the whole magic thing. That helps.<br /><br />Maybe it's not so bad after all. Or it wouldn't be, if I could have my stuff back. What kind of place takes your stuff away anyway?<br /><br />It's almost a shame the others aren't here. Well, maybe not Gaspard. I don't think he'd take this very well. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:bearerofskeith:1783 2008-01-29T01:52:36Z 2008-01-29T01:53:28Z <i>[unintelligible grumbling]</i><br /><br />I need a job.<br /><br />Anybody know where I can find one? urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:bearerofskeith:1456 2008-01-28T04:12:48Z 2008-01-28T04:12:48Z So... <br /><br />Skeith is gone too. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:bearerofskeith:1007 2008-01-25T11:57:01Z 2008-01-25T11:57:01Z This is all a dream, right? Spent too much time online and now I'm having some kind of fucked up nightmare about it. Right?<br /><br /><i>[slightly crazy laughter]</i> urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:bearerofskeith:540 2008-01-24T03:36:42Z 2008-01-24T03:36:42Z What the hell is going on? What is this place? <br /><br />It’s not The World. Or if it is, it’s a server I’ve never been on before. <br /><br />So what is it?<br /><br />And why the hell can't I log out?!